The Meaning of a Lorins Birthday
TODAY is "MY" Birthday!
As a visionary person, today is very symbolic to me. While many would love to show "love" by either "doing something for me on my BD" or "telling me what I should do on my BD", birthdays and I have a love and hate relationship. While they remind me that I get to see another year for which I am VERY GRATEFUL and somewhat CELEBRATORY, they also remind me of my MORTALITY and to be candid, they are VERY HUMBLING and sometimes SAD DAYS FOR ME. And as an OPTIMIST, I am rarely sad. They are MY DAYS... and those who really KNOW ME understand that they are days on which I PREFER to have TOTAL DOMINION over what I do and my reflections. "I" choose who to talk to or hang out with. It's ALL ABOUT MY BLACK ASS. Is that clear?
NOW -- am I grateful to you for remembering my birthday? You betcha! I was raised by the most loving and God loving angelic parents on Earth. While we never truly celebrated birthdays, I would always look forward to a note from MY MOTHER that INVARIABLY read: "on this day, I gave birth to this very special Asian-eyed baby boy and the many spiritual revelations she had about me." I have seen them ALL unfold. She taught me about GOD and DECENCY. On my BIRTHDAY I prefer to reflect on her. I'd also prefer to reflect on my amazing LATE FATHER whose love is still inexplicable, the way he carried me to school on his shoulders, taught me how to drive at 10/11 and taught me about FAITH, CORE, what being a STRONG BLACK MAN means, and to FEAR NO MAN. I'd also love to reflect on my late BROTHER. I wish I had loved him more. I still remember ALL HIS JOKES. I wish he were still around. I wish we could have shared our childhood jokes and memories still today. Last but not least, I would also love to reflect on my favorite aunts MARIE and Paulina. They too were angels. I miss them dearly. And I can't forget my bestie ASR who rescued me after losing my Mother... and "I have looked over my shoulder" and "you have been there ALWAYS!" No words! ;)
